I turn my phone on each day just to hear it not ring. Some days being single hurts. Some days are lonelier than others. Some days regrets weigh heavy and memories seem distant. Some days my heart actually physically aches because what if I die before I'm ever loved? I am Eryka
I am Eryka
How great it is that my Dad celebrated his 72nd year of life today. His 95 year old mom, among others, called to wish him well. It's quite a blessing. My blessing came this evening during a cool, impromptu conversation with Dad. We began discussing relationships. He recognized that not all guys have morals or… Continue reading Daddy’s 72!
I get what I want. It doesn't come when I think it should and some times the package doesn't fit the fantasy, but when I seek God, ask, then wait for it... I get what I pray for. The challenge is seeking God so that what I ask for aligns with his plan for my… Continue reading In Retrospect
Ever heard the phrase, "New Level, New Devil."? I have. Usually the person speaking this is referring to the various types of trials we may face in life. Not only is there struggle on the ground floor of a thing, but there's friction at every turn and staircase we reach as well. The enemy doesn't… Continue reading Crushing Heads
I am 30 years old as of Thursday, August 30th! Truly it has been the Grace of God that has kept me. Truly it is the Peace of God that sustains me. Most definitely it is the Love of God that soothes me. I would be nothing without God. Emotions try to deter me. Broken… Continue reading Happy Golden Birthday!
Tomorrow is my birthday. *insert confetti* This year is a bit special. It's my Golden Birthday! I am turning 30, on the 30th & it's a Thursday. (Thursday reminds me of the word Thirty, lol. Thursday is also my favorite day of the week - idk why!) Emotions are running high. I'm always overthinking so… Continue reading Birthdays & such…
As I often explain, I'm a Nanny. I learn major lessons from being around children. Their curiosity and imagination is refreshing. This week, I have watched my fair share of Sesame Street. We watched an episode today titled, Happy to be Me. The title says it all, but five minutes into the show, the lesson… Continue reading Can you tell me how to get to Sesame Street?
Recently I gave up and it has been one of the greatest changes I've seen all year. I've stopped trying to become and achieve and just decided to be. It's so liberating. In my quest to Give Up, I've gained some wisdom and understanding. Disclaimer: When I use the phrase "Give Up" I am referring… Continue reading Brave enough to give up
If I'm honest, I've wanted to give up many times. I've tried giving up and eventually went back to not giving up. Today, I give up. Really. I'm tired. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of caring. I'm tired of feeling. I'm tired of doing. I'm tired of being. I'm over fake smiling and pretending… Continue reading UP